MeToo: How I Subconsciously Blocked Joy and Happiness from Coming into my Life
In light of the recent news about Harvey Weinstein I think it’s important to share the following story with you...
Unfortunately, like so many men and women, I was sexually abused as a child. I was abused multiple times by people employed by my parents to watch over me and in my own home.
I consider myself to be a well-educated and well-informed person. As an adult I realized what happened to me was a violation and wrong, but I also knew that it happened a lot.
Somehow, this led to my believing that I shouldn’t make a big deal out of it. “This happens to everyone,” I told myself, “so I just need to move on and forget about it.”
I suppressed the memories of these experiences as much as I could. Fortunately, at a spiritual entrepreneurs’ workshop in New York City in the Fall of 2014, I had a major breakthrough in my healing.
We started the second day of the event with some “shadow work” to release emotional blocks and move any energy that was stuck in our bodies.
Our facilitator led a powerful visualization exercise that revealed that the energy of my sexual trauma was stuck inside of my body as a large piece of sharp, black plastic inside my womb.
All of a sudden, everything became so clear. I had been “playing small” in my life because I subconsciously believed that “playing big” would literally kill me. It wasn’t safe to “play big” in my professional life or my personal life.
Deep down I feared that if I made any big movements, that is, if I even attempted to enjoy any success and happiness in my life, this piece of black plastic would either 1) crinkle up and make noise, outing me as “just another sad victim” or someone who had invited the abuse or 2) shred my womb with its sharp edges and cause me to bleed to death.
I was filled with guilt, shame, and fear - extremely low vibrational emotions. I, in turn, attracted men who were vibrating at a similar frequency. I was attracting friends at this frequency as well.
I was intentionally choosing to date men that weren’t emotionally available so I wouldn’t have to reveal myself.
Thankfully, I was able to visualize the dissolving of this deadly piece of black plastic during the guided meditation at Gabby’s event. However, it was only the beginning of my healing process.
As you all know, over this past year I have been taking a deep dive into the best of modern psychology and ancient tantric techniques in a groundbreaking Sex, Love, and Relationships Coaching Certification Program through The Tantric Institute of Integrated Sexuality.
While I cannot claim to be perfect and totally finished with my healing journey, I am filled with gratitude to share that I have experienced massive shifts in this area of my life because of what I have learned and embodied through this program.
AND, the transformational tools and techniques that I’ve used to release the pain and shame of sexual trauma in my body are available to you as well.
If you’re not experiencing the joy and happiness that is meant for you in the realm of love, sex, and relationships, I guarantee that you are doing something unconsciously to block these things from coming into your life. We are all that powerful.
1 in 2 women and 1 in 5 men are victims of sexual abuse. You don’t need to suffer in silence. You don’t need to suffer alone. Healing is available and I can help.
If you’re ready to explore and begin to heal what’s blocking you from experiencing joy and happiness in all areas of your life - especially when it comes to love, sex, and relationships, I warmly invite you to book a FREE Breakthrough Session with me here.
All my love and gratitude,
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